While the world is recovering from news of Paris Attacks , We in Brussels are on terror alert of highest level from past 3 days and it is extended to Monday as well. The city looks deserted , military deployed on all major locations, empty streets and police patrolling everywhere ,even while writing this post I can hear sirens from my room within double glazed glass windows.
I can sense the fear even in the wind when I went outside for a quick walk this evening. People are going out only for urgent things, the school and colleges are closed and offices have allowed home working for tomorrow. I am not a stay home person on weekends especially if I am told not to go out ,makes it even more difficult.
Blogging does helps and gets me away from the constant thoughts but then I go back to news update every 10 minutes, it is a constant switching between this strange feeling of sadness ,boredom, fear and a vacuum created by absence of happiness, I don’t know how to put it exactly into words, a weird mix of feelings and then moving my windows tab to wordpress, I start to read posts from my lovely blogger friends which actually made me feel better and normal again for some time. I have started taking refuge in my writings when things get too much on my head, I hope and pray that things get normal soon here and everywhere in the world. The thought keeps coming to my head that how long can we actually live in this fear, and how much can we be inside ?